Weight - 226.8lbs
Circadian Rhythm Reset Day 19
Nutrition Totals - None
Wake - 6:30am
Breakfast - Lunch - 3c. Decaff Coffee, black, unsweetened
This is a fasting Friday due to religious reasons.
Dinner (6pm) - Pork Rind Cheese Nachos (1serving Pork Rinds, 2-1/2oz Cheddar, 1/4c Pico de Gallo (homemade), 1/4 avocado)
2 LC SF Tortillas with Scrambled Eggs, Cheese, Pico de Gallo and Avocado (2 Eggs, 1 oz Cheddar, 1/4 Avocado, 1/4c Pico, 1/2 Tbsp Butter)
Bed (11:15pm)
Notes: Still a tough day for me emotionally. I feel very overwhelmed with the decision and with all that's happened over the last year. Still dealing with the grief and stress of having a late stage breast cancer. It's changed and defined me so much and I swore I would never be that girl - defined by a disease. :( Have to just work on my emotional state.
Wanted and craved a martini so badly. I just wanted to have a normal dinner with drinks without having to weigh every decision I make based on is it good for my body and will it increase the chance of the cancer coming back? I just feel so over-vigilant sometimes I want to scream. Then I have to just shake myself and tell myself to get real. I'm cancer free today as far as we know, so how dare I wine about my "lot". I could be like so many of my friends and be dealing with a recurrence today and Stage IV disease.
I totally made a bone headed dinner choice. I keep a meat free, fasting Friday as part of my religious beliefs. And I ate pork rinds! *snort*. In my mind, I wasn't eating red blooded "meat". So it was fine. Then I sat down and was half way through the pork rind nachos and said, "Oh crap! What have I done!?) LOL. Oh well, I'm pretty sure God didn't lose any sleep over it. But I still felt bad about it.
Circadian Rhythm Reset Day 19
Nutrition Totals - None
Wake - 6:30am
Breakfast - Lunch - 3c. Decaff Coffee, black, unsweetened
This is a fasting Friday due to religious reasons.
Dinner (6pm) - Pork Rind Cheese Nachos (1serving Pork Rinds, 2-1/2oz Cheddar, 1/4c Pico de Gallo (homemade), 1/4 avocado)
2 LC SF Tortillas with Scrambled Eggs, Cheese, Pico de Gallo and Avocado (2 Eggs, 1 oz Cheddar, 1/4 Avocado, 1/4c Pico, 1/2 Tbsp Butter)
Bed (11:15pm)
Notes: Still a tough day for me emotionally. I feel very overwhelmed with the decision and with all that's happened over the last year. Still dealing with the grief and stress of having a late stage breast cancer. It's changed and defined me so much and I swore I would never be that girl - defined by a disease. :( Have to just work on my emotional state.
Wanted and craved a martini so badly. I just wanted to have a normal dinner with drinks without having to weigh every decision I make based on is it good for my body and will it increase the chance of the cancer coming back? I just feel so over-vigilant sometimes I want to scream. Then I have to just shake myself and tell myself to get real. I'm cancer free today as far as we know, so how dare I wine about my "lot". I could be like so many of my friends and be dealing with a recurrence today and Stage IV disease.
I totally made a bone headed dinner choice. I keep a meat free, fasting Friday as part of my religious beliefs. And I ate pork rinds! *snort*. In my mind, I wasn't eating red blooded "meat". So it was fine. Then I sat down and was half way through the pork rind nachos and said, "Oh crap! What have I done!?) LOL. Oh well, I'm pretty sure God didn't lose any sleep over it. But I still felt bad about it.
"I totally made a bone headed dinner choice. I keep a meat free, fasting Friday as part of my religious beliefs. And I ate pork rinds! *snort*. In my mind, I wasn't eating red blooded "meat". So it was fine. Then I sat down and was half way through the pork rind nachos and said, "Oh crap! What have I done!?) LOL. Oh well, I'm pretty sure God didn't lose any sleep over it. But I still felt bad about it."
ReplyDeleteIt's alright to feel bad about it - just don't beat yourself up about it.
Remember: God didn't make all these rules to punish us. He made them so that we could live a better life. And not just for Him, but more importantly for ourselves.
"And he said to them: The sabbath was made for man, and not man for the sabbath." - Mark 2:27.
(Rats. And I promised I wouldn't get all preachy just 'cause it was Sunday...)
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Hi Elwin! No beatings here. Well not much of a beating at any rate! hehe. But I used to go by the addage, "The beatings will continue until morale improves!" ;)
ReplyDeleteGreat to see you and I LOVE the verse!!! *swoon* Great reminder!
How have you been?
I been good kiddo! (Better than I deserve).
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I stop by almost every day to see what's up. As a matter of fact, I gotta wander back over to the main section. I got me a hankering for some Sloppy Joes...
Hope you like them. Let me know what you think, ok? I found my way back to your blog. I'm waiting tapping my foot for your next post!!! Really liked the video!
DeleteGosh, are you sure you found the right blog?
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If it is, you'll notice that when I post up there, it's kinda sorta just for me. It's my way of venting my frustrations over things. (Heck I don't think I posted anything in 2011. I must have been either happy, or busy...)
But you're sweet for mentioning it anyway. It's always nice to get a compliment from a real writer/blogger. You do a great job here and my stomach is really glad I found you.
:)
Anyway, you keep fightin' the good fight and I'll throw up a prayer for you now and then.
(Hopefully, God will listen when I pray for you, rather than for myself. I still haven't got that shoe box full of $100 bills I've been asking for...)
Ha! You are so funny! Hugs! No other choice but to fight the good fight. The alternatives suck! Ha! I hope you like some of the recipes. I'm kinda biased if you haven't noticed! ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm pretty sure the big Guy up stairs is listening to ya! (Keep writing!)